where did the time go

It's been five days since I last posted about creating time to 'redesign' my life.  I don't even remember what I was going to do, let alone schedule the time to do it. Where did the time, and this week go?

I also am realizing that Christmas is 13 days away.  Seriously, is time just moving and warp speed. 

Things I'm pondering...

...can I seriously just slow time down a bit....

...Does life get easier as you get older?

...I haven't had a good glass of wine in quite awhile...why is that?

Redesigning Life

I took a step back tonight from the stress of a paper and a fast approaching deadline to recalibrate life. It had been awhile since I had even a moment to make myself a nice dinner, clean my desk (which is where I found mail two weeks old) and just get things organized again.

On my desk I have kept a book that I have mentioned previously.... A Minute of Margin. So, why not, let's open it up and see where the bookmark was last left.

'Redesigning Life" -- how appropriate for me. A few excerpts that seem pertinent:

Civilization, in the real sense of the term, consists not in the multiplication, but in the deliberate and voluntary reduction of wants. This alone promotes real happiness and contentment, and increases the capacity for service. ~~ Mahatma Gandhi

I even used a common statement today....less is more...but yet I can't grasp that concept in my own personal life. I push and push but sometimes I wonder what for? Is it all worth it? Am I truly living? Is this the plan God intended for me?

Another excerpt (paraphrased).... "write down everything you have in your life that consumes time on a piece of paper....then throw it into the fire and wipe the slate clean. Allow God to redesign our lives by that which is fully spiritually authentic...'

Not a bad idea. Now I just need to schedule time to do that!

Things I'm pondering....
....what is the underlying reason that I push myself so hard? Ah yes, I know and was reminded by my mother...my unyielding desire to right my life's failures....
... how can I learn to not be a perfectionist?
... are there advantages to being lazy? If so, what are they?

Musings from a Snowy Day

It snowed again today. A few more inches added to the count. It feels like I've been stuck in winter for months already and yet according to the Gregorian calendar, the winter solstice does not begin until December 21st. How can this be? Why does this season always seem to start so early and last so long? Ah yes, I am reminded where I live in the midwest. Maybe I should move away to warmer climate?

I recall from last year, a record-setting snow fall year, the over abundance of snow and how I felt the same with regard to it. Will this year be a repeat? I was reminded today while driving that there are benefits of driving a 4-wheel drive vehicle. Now, if only I had one to deal with the elements.

With all this being said about the snow, difficulty driving in it and the bitter cold, when I'm warm and inside, the snow has an elegance about it as it flows smoothly from the sky above. Its actually soothing in away to just watch it fall and being peaceful.

If only life could be as simple, elegant and peaceful like snow falling. But yet, life is complicated. I do it to myself. The expectations and requirements I put on myself and the constant minimizing of my accomplishments just beat a guy down over time. But yet I always pick myself up only to fall down again.

One day, life will be easier and resemble the calmness of a fresh snow. One day...


Things I'm Pondering...
... is there a world record for the tallest snowman? If not...should I attempt to set that record?
... I wonder if there is a big enough bottle to bottle up all of one person's feelings for a lifetime in.
... I've been told to stop letting life get in the way of life...I wonder how I do that?