Rain

There is just something about rain....that sets the mood for me. It's been raining almost non-stop all weekend. I was tired of it for awhile but I cracked the patio doors tonight and have been listening to it for a bit. So, to enhance the mood, I threw on some jazz music as well. Can't ever go wrong with Miles Davis. So now, I'm desiring to go out to Seattle for a mini-vacation. There is just something about Seattle that has a peace about it for me. I've only been there once for about 5 days but it was a different world for me. I was able to get in touch with the inner me and find some peace.

Unfortunately, that mini-vacation will have to wait for now. But I'll do my best to tackle the next life struggle that I bring on myself.

I had a good conversation with a great friend...maybe one of my best friends...yesterday about struggles in life. I was reminded (only because I'm stubborn) that I need to talk about things and let them out more often and now hold things in. It was also suggested to me that I make a list regarding the specific we were discussing (not going to get into the details) to help get things out. I started the list...and its helping. I don't feel 'cleansed' by it but its helping to deal with it. Baby steps...baby steps.

So on this rainy evening in June, here I sit with the sounds of water dripping from the deck above, Miles Davis filling the room and some ambient lighting...I think to myself...you are strong and you can overcome. Surround yourself with those that care about you. Life is a challenge and you're up for the challenge.

Ponderings...

• Rain - is there a point when its just too much and we can somehow gather up the runoff and ship it elsewhere?
• Why does it seem so hard to just start living?
• Sometimes, reality sets in and its frustrating...how can I change that?