falling apart

I feel like my life is falling apart right in front me. I feel so alone in this world. I feel so far away from God. I have all this anger and bitterness inside of me and I can't seem to release it. I am angry with my life and need to get my attitude changed and I just can't seem to figure out how to do it. I'm so frustrated and discouraged right now with almost every aspect of my life. It has such a negative effect on me and I hate how is makes me feel inside.

I need something to change just wish I could figure out what it is. God, please give me direction and give me peace. I long so much for it right now and I can't navigate through this world on my own anymore.

I know I know... Proverbs 3:5-6....easier said then done. But I know its what I need to do....

um...now what

... so...my fish died yesterday. I only had it for a little over two months. It was an 'apartment warming' gift from my friend jessie. And sure enough, today, I'm sick and stayed home and I don't even have my fish to talk to. Pathetic am I? maybe... Lonely am I? probably too much.

Days like this I need to just fill my life with those things that are good and I'll make it through.

...but...days like today...i sure wish I had my puppy back.

hold on

I watched this video today - Hold On - by Good Charlotte - it reminds me of my life - so up and down lately - that it seems all i can do is to hold on...but hold onto what? I feel so lost in this world. my life seems so empty and alone but I know that I have one thing to hold onto - my God. With Him leading my life, I can make it through anything, no matter how tough, how alone I feel every day, how bad things can go at work, the aftermath of past changes in my life and the new changes yet to come. God will always be there for me. He will never leave me nor forsake me.

I will hold on. I will continue to seek after Him every day. For I know the reward will be great one day.

An Open Mind

An Open Mind....will lead to endless opportunities. Don't shut yourself off from life, happiness or success.

Lately, I feel like my life has become so consumed with the hustle and bustle of life and that I won't have an opportunity to enjoy life. But its just the mindset that I'm in. If I open my mind and not allow the daily tasks to dictate my life but instead, allow God to direct my path each and every day, everything in life will find its way to where it is supposed to be.

Remember, God is in control of your day and until you give Him full control, you will never have your path completely revealed to you.