Still not simple

So, um yeah, simplistic does not equal easy.

Work has been pretty calm now for two weeks and yet, I can't seem to relax, reduce stress or anything. In fact, it seems like things are worse. Maybe just a different kind of stress due to lack of direction in my life/career....again. What else is new?

I wish finding myself wasn't so hard. I wish that little things didn't affect me so much. Sometimes, I think I'm this lost soul in a big world, searching for something that I'm not sure if it exists. Or maybe its a figment of my imagination, this surreal image I created that will never become reality. And yet, at the same time, that surreal image scares me - like I don't know if I really want it. Oh the confusion I create for myself.

I mean seriously, why do I let things bother me? Why do I over analyze and create more angst than necessary? Why do I try to live a life that I'm not at yet and shouldn't be? I need to embrace my age and where I'm at but yet, I keep worrying about the future and planning so my decisions now have the best outcome for my future. Living in the now doesn't seem to exist for me. Why is that? What can I do to change that? I don't think anyone or anything can truly change me. It's all my inner self, searching, discovering, questioning life and what is has instore for me but yet I won't allow myself to accept the unknown.

One day, I hope that I can simplify my life, not confuse or frustrate myself and just live as life should be.

Simplistic - Not Easy

Simplicity does not equal easy...but that's ok.

Hard work is required in many things in life....but that's ok.

Success does not come easy but must be set as a goal... but that's ok.

Setting goals, having purpose, and striving for success is healthy...and that's ok.

To achieve success, you will fail - its a part of life...and that too is ok.

So why am I so hard on myself? Why do I expect so much of myself when others don't?

Focus on the simple things and give yourself a break Austin.

Embrace the Here and Now

A quote from William Shakespeare...

'There is a tide in the affairs of men, Which taken at the flood, leads on to fortune. Omitted, all the voyage of their life is bound in shallows and in miseries. On such a full sea are we now afloat. And we must take the current when it serves, or lose our ventures.'

Life is what you make of it. The peaks and valleys are only natural and we cannot dwell in either. For life is unpredictable. All we know, is that it will not be constant and change is expected. We must embrace life, Here, Now, and make the most of what we have.

Now is just a milestone on the way to greatness in the future.

Simplicity

In an effort to 'simplify' my life, this will be the first of many (I hope) 'simplistic' posts about life, direction and purpose.

Today, as I actually relaxed, I found myself feeling guilty for it. Why? There's nothing wrong with relaxing, even though I'm not good at it. But why feel guilty about it? Should life be that hard? Why can't I focus on the simple things in life. I tend to complicate things in my life and make things harder than they have to be.

As I begin the new year, I ponder this one of many thoughts...

If life we're not so complicated, or should I say, If I didn't make it so complicated, would it be easier? Does simplicity = happiness?

Three rules of Work: Out of clutter find simplicity; From discord find harmony; In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. ~ Albert Einstein

Color Quiz

Your Existing Situation
Authoritative or in a position of authority, but liable to feel that further progress is rendered problematical by existing difficulties. Perseveres despite opposition.


Your Stress Sources
Has an unsatisfied need to ally himself with others whose standards are as high as his own, and to stand out from the herd. This desire for preeminence isolates him and inhibits his readiness to give himself freely. While he wants to surrender and let himself go, he regards this as a weakness which must be resisted. This self-restraint, he feels, will lift him above the rank and file and ensure recognition as a unique and distinctive personality.

Conditions are such that he will not let himself become intimately involved without making mental reservations

Your Restrained Characteristics
Clings to his belief that his hopes and ideas are realistic, but needs encouragement and reassurance. Applies very exacting standards to his choice of a partner and wants guarantees against loss or disappointment.

Conditions are such that he will not let himself become intimately involved without making mental reservations.

Your Desired Objective
Needs release from stress. Longs for peace, tranquillity, and contentment.

Conditions are such that he will not let himself become intimately involved without making mental reservations.

Your Actual Problem
Wants to be valued and respected, and seeks this from a close and peaceful association of mutual esteem.

Initial thoughts on the search...

So, I started that whole search thing for who am I and what I want....

I've come to some shocking realizations....I think I'm kinda materialistic in a way but i've also realized that I have such a big heart that it scares me sometimes. I look at my list and see a lot of things that aren't even for me, but for other people.

I must say its an interestng exercise and we'll see where this leades me...

Wish me luck!

Let the Search Begin

Let the search begin...


...what is the search for...Well, a good friend of mine posed a question to me - she said...

...Austin, what do you want?

...now that's a $10,000 question but ironically, i had no answer. So, I am going to begin the search for 'Who I Am' and 'What I Want'....

Wish me luck!